Oct 28, 2006
Most of the time, I would feel very much confident on what is happening around me. Based on friend and family's advice, I always thought that this would likely happen or at least I can expect it sooner or later.
Currently, I'm feeling lost. Life is getting more complicated when I was given more expectations and responsibilities. Reflecting back on my failures and accomplishments I don't feel any much improvement for the department I'm working with. Most of the colleagues have achieved so called stability in their job scope where they're beginning to do the same thing and able to do it much faster. On my side, I'll be surprised with something new everyday. Most of it I get screwed by my boss or by a few of my colleagues. I just feel very 'out' of the group because being put into a different department compare to the rest. I just cannot justify whether I'm actually competent enough to work as a product engineer.
Funny, all the while i thought things would get better but the way i think towards myself is plain negative. I just want to hear some words of comfort by my colleagues/boss that I can do the job. Or at least telling me that they believe that I can do it. Sigh. Perhaps that's how a big corporate company is like.
(These photos were taken when I was in Putrajaya on Hari Raya)